Cleary this little place in the world has been long forgotten. It popped up on a fb flashback and I was like whoaaaaa, how does one forget about a blog and domain?  Story of my life. Anyways, according to my posts – the last time I was here I was starting to homeschool…what a journey we’ve been on since. I no longer home school, although it has been on my mind BIG TIME lately. For now my two bigs are in school and until next year, we’ll stay put. 🙂 Life is too fast,  I feel like if I read through this blog I would see this statement probably more than 20 times. But what the hell? I don’t think it’s normal how fast life goes these days. Half way through March just about…yesterday was Christmas, so this boggles me. My kids are huge all of a sudden and I dont have any more babies. The highchairs, diapers and strollers are gone. I miss them. I don’t think babies are hard, I think kids are hard. If I could go back to the days of my newborn, 3 year old and 5 year old…I would in a snap!! But not so much to do anything differently, I think thats a big key here. A lot of people think I mean I regret how fast it went, or that I wasn’t present…but I was. I didn’t have a business that was demanding then, it was also my baby and was just getting of it’s feet. I spent every day with my littles and went on adventures and breathed them in. I gave up friendships in return for relationships with my humans. It was magic – hence why I wouldn’t mind going back. Now, NOW!! My business is insanely busy, my husband has moved up in his career and his job is more demanding and even my kids – in school now, life is demanding of them. Demanding them to learn how people outside of our home work, demanding them to be tougher and more independent. Quite frankly, I’m the most proud momma ever of the big kids they are!! But…I wouldn’t mind some non demanding days back. Which is why I’m announcing, we are moving to HAWAII!! Just kidding…but I do dream of making that announcement. Too bad Hawaii is incredibly $$$$. Hey a girl can dream. <3 Anyways, long winded post about nothing other than I still want a pause button, or rewind. Whatever. Either. <3 Some more random photos from the past 34987589437 years since I blogged.

Side note : these are a mix of my big camera and my GoPro. 😉

I’ve been getting so many emails/messages/texts about switching to a private school for Logan instead of continuing our homeschool journey, so I thought I’d blog it. 🙂 This poor forgotten blog of mine. We started homeschooling for 2 reasons, 1 was that Logan has always been a quiet, introverted, needs his own space kind of dude. I didn’t think he was ready for the full commitment of being in such a structured setting all day at 5 years old. He seemed so strong and confident, but also in need of a lot of hugs and one on one attention and mostly, a lot of play – which I’m a big believer in when it comes to learning. 2 – because we aren’t in a great school district and I didn’t want to go that route. Kinder was amazing and such an inspiring learning adventure for all of us. The days were long but so much fun and the gift of watching your child’s brain absorb and grow with each passing day is something I’ll never forget. First grade came and there was a big shift in my guy. He was a lot more confident and had grown into his boots so to say and I started feeling that he was really bored at home with his 2 and 4 year old siblings. He wanted to run fast and play hard and the little ones just weren’t ready for that and on the other hand, the little ones really wanted to do things for their age and play and be free. So we were in a new territory and it was terribly difficult because I started feeling like I was letting Logan down by not being able to give him adventures for his age on the daily, and I felt guilty because the little ones weren’t getting to do adventures and playdates that are so special for their age. I knew I couldn’t do public school and the huge class sized 35+ here! So we looked into private school and after getting a tour and learning about the curriculum and bible based lessons, we felt that it would be the best fit for our family. It’s been a big transition and we’re still in it, but the overwhelming sense of peace and knowing that it was the right decision is well in my heart. <3 So that’s that. <3

And what’s a blog post with out images. Recent randoms. <3

Every few months I come on here and blog my little heart out of images that are so random and so special to me. My brain is far too scattered to compose a well written, thought out post with a story-telling barrage of images that flow like a good book. So here I am with a mess of moments from the last few weeks? months? People always ask about our adventures in homeschooling. It’s been quite the journey thus far. It started off really wonderfully exciting, then progressed into arguments and frustration for all and I wondered if this was the right path for us, then we were blessed enough to get in to a co-op, and life changed. We have so much fun on home school days now and it’s been incredible with the co-op because I’m held accountable and also and most importantly for this transition, was for big dude to be in a structured atmosphere and see that schooling is supposed to be fun and playful, but that it’s also about listening and respecting others. Other than that, which has been the biggest thing for our family to adjust to this year – we are strolling along and watching these amazing humans grow up. I know, I know…trust me. I say it far too much how fast it goes. But I’m about to have a 6 year old, a 4 year old and a 1.5 year old. It feels like I just became a mom and then had 2 tiny little wonders that needed me all day. Nobody tells you about the change that occurs when you get to be a free spirit and float along just loving on and giggling with your little ones all day, and then one day, you wake up and there’s responsibilities. School work, so.much.laundry., baseball games, ballet classes, lunches to be made, and personalities developing into their own. It’s wild and some days I just pray to God to take me back to when we just sat in a sandbox for hours and watched our kids be silly little munchkins and we had nowhere to be and nobody to answer to. Alas, I do realize it’s all a journey and I’m so thankful for their changing minds and each phase, it’s just an adjustment. I can’t imaging how many more of these adjustments we will go through in their lives, but I’m grateful for each one and IMMENSELY thankful for photographs and videos that let me go back and soak it all up when I’m missing it any of the stages that have passed.

I feel like I always repeat the old saying, ‘the days are long but the years are short.” I repeat it to remind myself that yesterday, so it seems, my first baby was born..and yet here he is, almost 6 and with his own personality, likes and dislikes, temper, fascinations, moods. It happened over night. How can my daughter be turning 4! My little girl that I nursed for 2 years and wore in the baby carrier until she was 3…even during my 3rd pregnancy, she was in the ergo on my back. And my littlest dude, who I felt like I was pregnant with for 100 years – he’s a whole big personality in a tiny little dynamo body. He runs with the big kids, has more attitude than them put together and also loves me so fiercely it humbles me. Isn’t it wild though, on those long days when everything is overwhelming – that soon, that day is forgotten and it’s a week/month/year later. I try to absorb it and remember my own childhood and how long ago it seems to me…but how it’s yesterday to my mom. Parenthood is so beautiful and complex. It has so many sides and so many emotions and ups and downs and yet, it’s the most magical incredible gift to experience it. I always think of the people that constantly say to me, “wow, you have your hands full” or the new one since I’ve started home schooling, “why would you home school? I couldn’t wait to get my kids into school so I could have my days back!” – and I wonder how that comes off to my little people that are standing there listening. I *GET* to be with my babies all day. It’s not a chore. It IS hard work…but I am thankful that I, maybe selfishly, get to be the one to mold their minds a bit longer, get to protect their innocence and teach them about what inspires them. This is such a rambling post, sometimes pictures are so much better than words, especially when the words are flowing out onto paper in a jumble of thoughts that have no specific direction or ending. But I would say that’s how my brain works these days anyways so it’s fitting. I started this post because I was looking back through the year of images and feeling pangs of sadness that it all seems so long ago but so yesterday. How long until I look back on the images from Christmas this year and wonder how it’s come and gone again. All this to say, I’m breathing it in. Saying yes to tucking them in one more time, or yes when they want me to sit and color with them. Yes to as much real stuff as I can. <3